20 Times Alec Lightwood Broke Our Hearts In S2E5

"I don't know what to say to Clary. I can't face her." *cries*


1. When he stayed out all night practicing his aim just to avoid seeing Clary.

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2. When he couldn't believe what he had done to his Parabatai.

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3. When he felt completely helpless and blamed himself for every bad thing that had happened.

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4. When he took out his frustration on Jace even though the person he was really mad at was himself.

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5. When he couldn't find the words to explain his feelings of guilt and regret.

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6. When he literally jumped off the Institute roof to get away from his problems.

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7. When he waited for Magnus to find him on the fire escape.

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8. When he admitted that he was having a really hard time being around the other Shadowhunters.

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9. When he didn't think he deserved to be healed.

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10. When Magnus saw the pain underneath his tough exterior and Alec didn't even try to argue.

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11. When he took complete responsibility for the actions of the Demon.

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12. When he just wanted Magnus to tell him how to fix everything.

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13. When he really wanted to believe in the strength that Magnus saw inside of him.

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14. When he was brokenhearted for Clary and her loss.

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15. And was willing to do absolutely anything to make it up to her.

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16. When he made a vow to support her no matter what she decided to do.

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17. When he wanted to stay by her side, but didn't get the choice.

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18. When he started to get suspicious of the danger that Clary might be in.

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19. When he took on a powerful Warlock and had to deal with the consequences.

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20. When he finally accepted what had happened and said goodbye to Jocelyn.

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In case you're literally crying right now, we wanted to cheer you up with this funny moment where Iris suggested that Alec and Clary were dating:

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Do you feel better? Look how horrified they both are!

Have you seen S2E5 yet? Watch it right here on Freeform!

Poor Alec is going through such a hard time right now. Do you think he'll be ok? Tell us in the comments.

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